MERRY CHRISTMAS!

This Christmas has been really wonderful and the theme for me could be summed in this word:
SPECIAL

Every one of us has a need to feel special, to know that what we do and who we are as a person is of significance and really this can be filled only by God and not anybody else. Over the course of this year, I learnt to have all of my identity rooted in Christ. I used to feel that what I do is not enough and maybe if I could be a little more...if I could do a little more...if only I haven't...if only I have done...

Yes, it's true that even for someone who has been in church this long..it's possible to have struggles within. But it came to a point where I told myself: Lynn, this has got to stop. STOP thinking that you aren't good enough, STOP feeling like you could have done more, STOP saying that it's your fault. Just STOP.

And yeap, there're times when it's easier to slip into this stuff again rather than taking a stand and acknowledging that God is not a performance-based person that so many have perceived Him to be...now it is ridiculous to me that we give in to those thoughts.

At the end of the day, I like to look back and see those flashbacks of times when I indeed had given and placed my best but more so, those times when I felt what I did was inadequate or maybe, not substantial..but because God moved in there, things happened + lives were transformed + situations salvaged.

I feel special this way, like how Benny in the Christmas production felt touched; that God actually chose him to complete a task, knowing that he would fail along the way but graciously allowed so, enabling Benny to draw nearer to Him. Because he is the one for the task. Beacuse he is chosen. Because he is special to Him.

It gave me hope, knowing that I'll be able to do what God wants me to do, no matter what may happen along the journey because I am the woman for the job :)

I'm also very grateful and feel privileged to have people in my life who have made me feel special knowing that I've made a difference in theirs.

And words mean alot to me (my love language #1, :) ) so just to end with some words I've received this Christmas from loved ones..this also serves to be a record and reminder to myself :)

Plus: YOU are special too!

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Tizane (my beloved leader who's also a sister, a mentor, a confidante)
Lynn, you light up my life

Jonathan (my best friend of four yrs, my teh tarik buddy)
Trust me when I say, u really played a big part in my life.. No doubt we dun meet much recently, but bear in mind, u're always someone special = ) Merry x'mas!

Adrian (my connect group member)
It has been a wonderful walk, spiritually and physically, growing frm strength to strength under ur patient guidance. Oso thanks for those words of affirmation. Ur encouragement empowers. :)

Anamika (my chum of two yrs and going strong, my evil twin..hah..)
You must be a blessing in disguise, feel blessed to have you in my life.