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Lynn
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Saturday, 7 November 2009
some on-my-mind stuff[ 6:53:00 pm ]
1. My sanity
I am not losing it. Really. I feel misunderstood at times. But I know it's okay. It's okay to be me. It is okay if people think that certain aspects of you (your values, characteristics, attitudes towards life) is weird. It is okay if people see you busying about and think you don't "have a life". It is okay when you say you love God and people sometimes throw you irksome looks.
2. My future family
My student asked me to bring her to Sentosa on a Saturday, sometime soon. I'd love to, so wanna do that. She's 8 and I'm 21. But to say the truth, I've got a strong feeling that no matter how young I'm gonna dress up as, there'd be people on the beach who'd think I'm her unwed mother or something. hahah! :p
Praying I could get her mum's permission to do so. I love to know that a young one is being nurtured in my hands, in the hands of God who is with me.
I so wish I could have a future family now. And I know I am only twenty-one.
3. My boyfriend
I don't have a boyfriend. I am not looking for one. I will have one, someday. I don't know when.
These are answers I have been giving to the people around me; family and friends, colleagues, acquaintances, strangers. And myself.
I know I am of age. But only God knows whether I am ready for one and the "when" will always lie with Him.
But can I tell you that I have a Husband though. :) Forever His. <3
4. Banking Industry
Yesterday, I read a tweet from a friend.
I am still amazed of how God brought me into banking industry. My heart skipped a beat when I read it. I was lunching with a colleague and we were talking about our jobs. We were just sharing about how mutual friends and even ourselves came into this industry upon graduation or from entirely different industries. We felt there was something so wonderful about this thing in common; coming into this industry, the love and interest for it, the willingness to plough in this industry.
God reminded me about my own case when I read the tweet. How I came into banking. How God brought me in. I will always be in awe of that.
5. Rest
It takes more faith to rest than to work. At least, for me..it is. I am trying to get a good balance between work and rest..I know I'm getting there. My block leave is so abrupt and sudden..but I am beginning to appreciate it.
I think God must have known how much I truly need a break. I honestly think I don't know it myself. Being forced to rest seems scary because at the back of your mind, worrisome thoughts can come creeping in at times. But I know I really need this Sabbath.
It will be a time of restoration.
6. Love The world needs LOVE more than ever now.
I want to give more of it away.
7. Wholeness Who can make us whole except God?
I wanna run to God first, only and always for wholeness. He makes me complete.
8. New beginnings The number 8 reminds me of new beginnings and that's what it symbolises, biblically. I know good new times are coming. I want to start praying for the year 2010.
9. Christmas I have always loved those candlelight services. It shows the romance between couples and the romance God had set right from the beginning of time. The romance between us and Him.
I love the way the light goes from one candle to another. Honestly, I always tear during candlelight services. The way the hall lights up from one single light never fail to amaze me and make me thank God for Jesus.
Jesus is our Light.
10. Sunflowers I love sunflowers. Especially during those not-so-smooth-sailing days at work, I always have the urge to get myself a big stalk from the florist downstairs. Just to cheer myself up. :)
We gotta all learn what encourages us, cheers us up, makes us happy and light..and do it to ourselves.